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As per title.
Seriously.
Will update soon, right now too exhausted.

"Best Friends Forever!!!" that’s what me and my 5 girl friends used to say.
Me, shuli, lee, spy, annie, and jac. Us 6. Just us 6.

It’s been years since we were BFFs. I met jac 1st, during Form 1. She
used to bully me like crazy… minor stuffs like throwing staplers into
my hair, wetting my uniform, forcing me to write lines for her… those
were the days. Sometimes when it got too much,I’d just blow up. But
usually I don’t mind her bullying me. And even if we did quarrel, we
always made up in the end. It sounds wrong, but I enjoy being bullied.
=p And since she’s the FIRST person ever that I’ve really talked to, I
usually go running towards her with latest gossips, or girlish
problems. She’s hopeless in giving advice, but I always felt better
after telling her these things.

Then I met annie, also in Form 1. She’s 1 of the brightest girls I’ve
ever met, and she happens to be my teacher’s daughter. Naturally, I was
awed and intimidated. At 1st. I think it was Jac who introduced me to
her. and somehow or rather, we started talking and stuff… Annie
sometimes say pretty sarcastic things, like how my results sucked so
badly they’re like piles of shit. Yeah, those stuff. But I know she
meant well. I mean, come on, I’m pretty much irresponsible during those
days (well I still am.. =p), and without her constant nagging and her
effort attempting to teach me math, and force me study instead of
loitering around in MP, was really appreciated. Throughout the years,
especially during those times when I’m having major exams like SPM and
STPM, she helped me out a LOT. and I mean, A LOT. without her math
teachings, I’d be dead now. Honestly.

Then sometime during Form 2, I started mixing with spy and lee. I think
they’re in the same class as me, but.. lol. can’t really remember. spy
was the math genius in my class (dammit, what’s it with me and math
geniuses??? T.T) so yeah, I usually consult her for help in
mathematical problems. But once I started hanging out with her, she
turns out to be a really witty person. Don’t be fooled by her outward
appearance. She looks cool, intimidating, quiet and stuff, but inside,
she’s absolutely  NUTS. She also happens to be the only girl among my 5
friends, that I really share a lot in common with. I mean, well she’s
tall (though dark >=3), she adores animes and mangas, she drools
over awesome J-pops, she likes ODD things (like t-shirts with swear
words printed on them, middle-fingered earrings…), she’s a dog-lover,
she’s gluttonish (but not fat???), among other things.

Lee… I think the first time I’ve spoken to her was back when she was
involved in an accident or somesort, and I went her house visiting her.
Lee’s got occasional mood swings, and when she’s having her mood
swings, it’s advisable to stay far away, because her moodiness is
honestly infectious. She’s takes a long time to recover from them. And
sadly, she gets her mood swings often. Otherwise, she’s awesome to hang
out with. Among all of us, she and annie are the most matured. But
she’s the only one in the group that’s most… ama-ish of all. If
anything were to describe her properly, I’d say she’s definitely A
girl. yeah. A GIRL. As in proper, down-to-earth, responsible, gossipy,
girlish girls. you… you get what I mean??? A real, proper, girl.

Last came shuli. Well I dunno why I met her last, but I’m not
complaining. I became close to her since Form 5, when she happens to be
sitting next to spy. So yeah, gradually I got to know her. 1 thing for
sure, her english is BATSHIT good. Usually in my class, it’s either
her… or me, pawning english lessons and exams. and usually it’s her.
99% of the time. She’s a real hard-working ass too, day & night
bending over textbooks. But I swear, there’s a few occasions i caught
her doodling on the textbook while she was supposed to be studying!!!
HA! guess no one is perfect afterall. >=3 And, not to mention, her
sarcasm rivals annie’s. Especially concerning my schoolwork. T.T

ok. These are my friends. Ever since Form 1. I’ve been bullied, teased,
blackmailed, forced and god-knows-what-else. And yet, they’ve been
there for me always. Through thick and think. through summer and
winter. Through hot and cold. Always. I’ve never thought the day would
ever come when our friendship will be on a rocky end. I mean, we’ve
always been together. We’ve done stupid stuffs together, laughed
together, cried together, giggled together… everything.

But now, (or rather, this week), now that I’ve found the love of my
life, I just realised that I’ve put my friendship with them at stake. I
keep telling myself to place my friends and family along with leo-chan
at the top of my list (don’t ask me what list. It’s just a goddamn
list.) But… I guess I got too carried away. This whole week, had been
awesome. And that’s what’s wrong.

I know there’s nothing wrong with going out on dates, lunches, dinners
with your boyfriend. But, ignoring friends’ messages, calls, and HELL,
even birthdays is TOTALLY wrong. and I’ve done precisely just that. I
saw my friends messages in my maxis phone, but at that time, I told
myself: "ah, no need reply larh… not yet top-up phone also… when top-up only reply them." And when I received a call from Jac, asking me why the HELL i’ve forgotten about Annie’s birthday, I was horrified. I COMPLETELY FORGOT about her birthday. OMFG.

I know by then I should’ve called her immediately to explain myself, to apologise, to wish her a happy belated birthday, but I did not. I was so stingy in topping another RM30 into my goddamn maxis phone, I decided to wait a few more days till the expiry date before topping up. And in the end… I forgot.

All these while, I had always been the one left behind in Melaka. Waiting for them to return, so I can see them. Chat with them. Gossip about the good ol’ days. Bring them out for shopping, yumchars, and other usual stuffs. I had always been waiting for them. Until 2 weeks ago, when I found the love of my life. Finally, I was so happy, so so happy that I’ve, at long last, something to look forward to in this doomed life of mine. I’m so happy. Honestly. So happy, to the point where my friends just slipped out of my mind. Lately, I had NOBODY in my thoughts apart from Leo-chan. Nobody. I was just so happy.

Until lately, I started receiving messages and calls, which sounded pissed. I started viewing blogs which sounded pissed. I started receiveing MSN messages which sounded pissed. I started receiving friendster comments which sounded pissed. ONLY then, did I just realise what I’ve done.

To all my friends out there, (especially to Jac, annie, shuli, spy, and lee), I’m truly sorry for what I’ve done. I know you guys would probably never ever forgive me, even if I explained myself, and I don’t even know how to explain myself for this abysmal behavior. But… you people really are special to me. Always had been and always will. I’m not asking for forgiveness, but I’d be more than glad if you people can understand my feelings. I guess I got carried away by my own happiness here. There used to be 2 most important things to me in my life: my family and my friends. Now there’s 3: my boyfriend, my friends, and my family. I really hope you all can understand my irrationality for these past few days.

I’m not joking when I said I value friendship, k? I’ll never be able to forget what you’ve done for me. Never. So if you can find it in your heart the ability to forgive this naive, stupid girl, please do. I’d really appreciate it. And feel free to kick me, hard, the very next time you see me, for what I’ve done. But, if you really can’t forgive me, I guess I asked for it. So on my own head be it.

And lastly, but not least, I’m really sorry for everything I’ve done.

ps: NO apologies from Leo-chan!
pss: there’s so much more for me to write down here, but, I’m kinda depressed right now. So let’s leave it here for the time being.

Woof Wurf Wuff *snort* Waff. Wuff Wooof Waergh Woorf Wuurf woof Wuurf Warf WARF. *whines*

Woof wourgh woorf? Wuff warfey Arwuff WARF!!! Woof wuff wargh Warf WARF wurfey… *snort* arf urf Wuff WAURF. Woofey warf Warf wargh Wuff grrrr woorf warfey… *whines*

Wuff Wuffy Woorf Wuurf… *whines*

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Ahem. I’m writing this on behalf of Tippy. But I doubt any of you out there really understands doggie language.. so here goes.

Title = I Miss My Parents…

I woke up this morning. And I don’t see my parents inside the house. *whines*

Where are they? I wanna greet them!!! Even my dear big brother’s gone… Only big sister’s left here. And she’s a lazy bum. She hardly ever brings me out for walks… *whines*

I miss my parents… *whines*

==== THE END ====

ahh. please pardon Tippy’s bad grammar and vocabulary… But he’s definitely showing some improvement. Heck, he even knows how to complain about me!!! T.T

ps: maybe I should start teaching doggie’s language… It’d be good to earn some big bucks. /gg >=3

Note: OMS = Organizational Management Seminar

Nov 17th, 2007 - 11.05am
Currently, I’m sitting between SPB and EMiNA’s president, occasionally watching them drawing circles and random cartoons on their programme book, while playing SUDOKU on my phone. They (the OMS committee) are showing some lousy English cartoons up front, while waiting for the APAC people to arrive with their speech.

HOLY SHIT FU**.

I wanna die right now. If only I have Leo-chan with me, or my laptop, or even my brother’s PSP. Even with my earphones plugged on, it’s not exactly helping to kill my boredom off. And having Edo and Navin reading this current paper-blog of mine… is not helping either. =_+"

But meh. I’m bored. I’m so darn bored. Which probably explains why I’m paper-blogging on a friggin’ tentative programme booklet. When is this gonna end? WHEN?! T.T

ps: this post was written yesterday, but somehow I couldn’t access my friendster the entire night. Sorry for posting it up late. OTZ

T.T
I. Miss. Leo-chan. Like. Crazy.

Due to unforeseen circumstances, Leo-chan needs to return to Ipoh from Monday onwards, for a whole week. I shouldn’t be making him worry, but I honestly miss him like crazy.

5 more days. It’s only just 5 days. But it feels like an eternity. Blargh. I need to play more DotA. yeah.

/me uses Traxex the Drow Ranger and starts running around in enemy’s base with 20HP.

ps: Leo-chan, I miss you. T.T 何時までも、何所までも、君を愛してるよ。

Blargh. I hate my neighbours. And I’m sure they hate me too. ^^

Just an hour ago, dad told me to get some documents photostated for him. As I was getting into my car (which is parked just directly opposite my house), I noticed a white Proton Saga behind me, stopping in the middle of the road. A quick glance around told me it’s the annoying family round my neighbourhood corner. This aunty’s forever parking outside people’s house (read: MINE), while there are like… a whole lot of free space right outside her own bloody house. But NO. She had to park outside MY house.

all right. Fine. She wanna play, I’ll play along. /gg I took my time unlocking the gear, unlocking the steering, twitching my tissue box, refilling the water bottle inside my car, removing used-up parking tickets in the glovebox, folding up my jacket, wiping the mirror, twidding my seat, and heck, I even took my time choosing which CD to pop into my player!

AND she’s still there, signalling, right in the middle of the road. CHRIST. It’s easily half an hour drag, and that old hag is still waiting to park opposite my house. I gave up, started the engine, and drove away.

… one of these days…. one of these days imma scatter nails or something around her car… sigh. ONE of these days…

OOT: リオーちゃんが愛してる

Remember the part about me being involved in a minor accident, with the bloody
policewoman? Where she agreed not to lodge a police report, but on condition I had to cough up 500 bucks for her asap? yeah?
Good news. She’s back. ^^

Was having a nap just now, when my maxis phone rang.

/me checks the number. Unfamiliar number.
me: ‘lo?
M: EH. AH MOI. Saya ini lah. M*****.
me: (… oh fucketty fuck) yes kak M?
M: AH MOI ah. Bila nak datang bayar duit saya?
etc etc (it’s better that I don’t write down the whole conversation between me and that cash machine.

Sigh. Look, I know I’m at fault here. I hit her car. But my car’s damage is like… 10 times worse than hers. She merely got a scratch at her shiny red ass, and her bonnet jumped up. THAT’s it. I thought it was gonna be like.. a hundred or so to repair them. But no. Apparently she went to some screwed-up mechanic shop, got her whole car repainted, refixed, and god-knows-what-else, and she told me it’s a friggin RM500. HOLY SHIT.

I tried avoiding her calls like a plague for the past month, while giving the excuse I’m working. Which is true, I assure you. Or partly true. Whatever. The point is, I’m busy. Yeah. But now, I made the mistake of not saving her number into my maxis simcard, and when i switched phone, of course her contact name will NOT show up. So… that’s the worst mistake I could’ve made by answering the damned phone.

Anyway, she told me to get the money ready as soon as possible, even though she DID lodge a police report on me already. NO WAY I’m going to cough up that amount of cash to this ah-longish, money-thirsty woman. NO WAY. I’m seriously glad for once Malaysia is conducting this ACA thingy on police-officers. That way, even if she tried to sue me or something, I’ll rest in peace knowing she’s in for some hot stuff if the court learned she’s extorting money from me, if she had indeed lodged a police report on me. ^^

So, yeah. Life’s still very much bliss for me. I’m just gonna treat this as some random… fly or something, and see what happens. /gg

ps: I LOVE defying law, and yet, I’m studying law. O.o
pss: I’ll NEVER EVER answer any unidentified number ever again. Except for KL number of course. /gg

8th November, 2007 - No words can describe how i feel right now. So keep reading, and eventually you’ll get what i mean. ^^

Apparently Sushi King is having some new promotion menu, so me and my ダイスキの人 went try it out. OMFG. OMFG. ZOMGWTF. HOW could they have pushed this menu till november?! It should have been on their goddamn menu book ever since Sushi King was first created!!! First we had Sake Onigiri. 美味い！！！Each bite is practically dripping with salmon. HONESTLY! Next is Sake Inari. 美味しい！！！And then we had Sake Bento and Soft-shell-crab… okay. That’s the final straw. I can’t take it. It’s too nice. It’s too wonderful. It’s too magnificent. T.T Honestly it’s just… too much. So.. I had to finish it off, without any description. (and yes, I still think it’s bloody worth the $$$, even after getting my tongue pricked with fish bones. ^^)

So after SK, as usual, we went "walking around aimlessly". Bumped into an old friend of mine, stocked up on Hello Pandas before getting slightly lost in Dataran, and ended up buying a postpaid Digi plan. /gg RM30 per month with FREE UNLIMITED CALLS DAILY between primary and supplementary lines are FRIGGIN AWESOME. and it’s also damn worth the money. /me thinks of the amount of possible phone spams with this plan and hugs herself. ^^

And next is…
…
…
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DOTA. Ok, I admit. we can’t get enough of it. =^_^= Revenge is SWEET, defying rules of nature by hitting enemy’s fountain is AWESOME, and recklessness aka evilness FTW. Enough said. And DOTA games PWNS arcade games anytime. /gg

Gosh. Right now I’m too full to even bother writing how good the food in Secret Recipe is. Lobster Sauce is fantastic, and hot Cordon Bleu oozing droplets of cheese out is batshit insanely good. God, it’s… blargh.

It’s a sin to consume so much good food in a single day.

— taken from a certain ダイスキの人. /gg ^^

and approximately 2 hours ago, after parking somewhere in campus, after prying off old simcards off our phones and replacing them with the new postpaid simcards, after chatting on PHONE using THAT simcard while sitting next to each other… the best thing, best news that could’ve happened to me… happened. Just like that. When I least expected it. I don’t really know how to describe what happened… but it’s something like this:

ダイスキの人：　俺わ、君が、スキだよ。。。
わたし：　。。。本とに？よかった！！！あたしも、あなたがダイスキ！

(adapted from almost any shoujo anime there is out there)
(and if you have no bloody idea what I’m on about… go pick up Korean!!!)
I mean like, come ON. You can only find these kinda conversation in animes lar weh… this is Malaysia we’re talking about know. /me rolls eyes.

But honestly speaking, this is just B-L-I-S-S. I’m over the sun, the star, the moon, and if I don’t get a grip on myself soon, I’d be lost in some random galaxy far, far, away. I… need… to… get… a… grip… on… myself…
/me suddenlly burst out laughing hysterically.
This is AWESOME. =^_^=

ps: 皆殺しis FRIGGIN cool. /gg and no, this has nothing to do with 37564. Nothing at all. What makes you think that? sheesh.
pss: regarding my title, moriawase refers my lunch, goroawase refers to the postpaid plan, and shiawase is my very own Happy End~
psss: I’m still over the sun, the star, the moon the moon, the star, the sun.
pssss: /me glomps leo-chan~ >=3

Sighs. 1st day of 2nd Semester just ended. Not as bombastic as I hoped it would be, but certainly not as boring as I dread it to be. So here goes:

7.50am: Had 8am class today. So had to wake up at this time. *groans*
8.00am: Left home. Well actually, I left much later than this, since I realised I left my bag upstairs after starting the car’s engine.
8.20am: Arrived in class. Got myself landed with a bunch of unknown people, with a presenation titled ‘vandalism’ due in 4 weeks time. I HOPE I’m in the right class.
8.50am: Lecturer told us to shoo. So we shooed. Me immediately went straight back home.
9.00am: I’m starving, but my urge to sleep was greater. Slept like a corpse after dragging my pillow to my biological brother’s room, since that ass is in my room blasting ‘Feel the O2 Jam’ at top volume, using my laptop, on my bed.
10.50am: Got woken up (is there such word?) by my calendar alarm: Liz wants to see you!!!! Get the hell up!!!
11am: Hurriedly left home while praying Liz won’t kill me.
11.10am: Got briefed by Liz on our tasks for neXus, while randomly surfing the net in SPR.
1pm: Lunch with my annoyingly amusing, ungodly stubborn brother. Couldn’t recognise Edo in a suit eating 2 tables away from us. But… there’s no mistaking that haha-I’ve-seen-something-interesting look. That’s Edo, for sure. Learnt a new lesson, though, and that is to never ever believe somebody giving the excuse of ‘going to the toilet‘ while hurriedly stuffing a suspicious-looking slip of paper into his/her pocket.
2.30pm: Landed my annoyingly amusing, ungodly stubborn brother half an hour late for class. T.T /me goes hang herself.
2.45pm: Slept like a corpse again till 7.00pm.
7.00pm: Just remembered I have Japanese class at 7.00pm.
7.20pm: Arrived 20 minutes late, but 10 minutes earlier than my usual time for Jap class.

Well after this I kinda lost track of the time. Was busy marathoning the remaining episodes of ‘The Melancholy of Suzumiya Haruhi’.

Mum came home in full-blast-berserker-mode. Apparently, she had been attempting calling me, my biological brother, my dad repeatedly; but somehow, neither of us received the call. She then tried calling the house phone, but the line was crappy. Naturally, my mum exploded. She yelled at each of us in turn, yelled at my brother twice, and proceeded to smashing our house phone into bits.

Knowing her, neither of us had any intention of interrupting her rampage, so we just kept our mouth shut. Dad immediately shut himself in the bathroom, both me and my brother hid ourselves in our room. At long, long, long last (read: an hour later), and after much slammings here and there, mum finally chilled.

/me continues watching episode 12 of ‘The Melancholy of Suzumiya Haruhi’.